It seemed that failure was an ever-present theme in my life as we transitioned our Haitian boys into our family. Stress levels were at an all-time high while our new ones learned to live in the love of family and while we learned to fully love and welcome them.
In the midst of this struggle I was repeatedly falling short of expectations I had made and hoped for myself. I was often failing in the giving of love, kindness, gentleness, and compassion.
My compiling failures caused me to wonder if the Father’s forgiveness could really cover it all. Was He still looking upon me with love?
As a believer in Jesus I know I am forgiven and free through His shed blood on the cross. He has washed away my sin from now to eternity and I can stand before Him white and pure.
And yet . . . during our family’s difficult time of transition, there seemed to be a blockage as the head knowledge of forgiven was not easily sinking into my guilty heart.
It felt like the enemy’s arrows of doubt and shame were the only things getting through.
I cried out for the Lord Jesus to help me once again experience the goodness of His love and forgiveness . . .
. . . And He heard me.
His light broke through the darkness of my clouded perspective and He removed the enemy’s arrows of guilt and shame. He healed my wounds and helped me to once again experience the freedom of His full forgiveness and love.
If you are a weary mama, laden with guilt—a child of God struggling to feel forgiven and free—get on your knees or lift up your hands and cry out to Jesus. Bring your troubled conscience to His throne of grace.
Spill out your heart to Him. He sees you. He hears you.
He knows all the details, and He still loves you.
Lay your burden at His feet and walk in freedom as a Forgiven Mama.
The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing. – Zephaniah 3:17